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Well, it's been a while since I have posted but not a lot has happened in the last 2 weeks. I did get verified at work, so I am now officially a manager and got my raise! I will see that money on next Friday's paycheck. Hopefully, it will be enough that I do not have to live on $20 for two weeks. We'll see though. I do have tomorrow and Saturday off, and I haven't qiote decided what I am going to do with my free time.
Lately, in my free time, I just relax since I have to work like 9 sometimes 10 hours a day. But, it still gets lonely. I wish that I could get over this complex that I have. I want to hang out with people, I want them to call me, not the other way around. I don't know why I think like that. I figure that if they wanted to hang out with me then they would call me. I'm sure that it probably works both ways. Also, I don't like to just show up at people's houses. It makes me feel rude and uninvited. The way I see it is that we all know that one person who we put up with when we have to and don't actually like or want to be friends with, so we avoid them whenever we can. I have this massive fear that to a lot of people I am that person. OR I am the person who people don't really care if I am around or not. If I happen to show up--cool. If I am not around when people are hanging out--oh, well.
If I just had the balls to call people to see if they wanted to hang out, then this wouldn't be a problem. But, what if they feel caught between arock and a hard place, and say yes even though they don't actually want me around, and then when I am there everything is all weird.
Whatever.
In other news, I have an entire public address due on July 24, and I don't even have a topic. I want to write a Crit, but I have never written one for competition. Yes, I have taken Rhet Crit, and yes I have taken Com Theory, but that is class, and this is competition. I'm just worried that I'm not going to get it done, and then Kittie will freak out because this is now part of a our Forensics scholarship.
Contemplate this: Is paralanguage as effective an indicator on the phone as it is in person?
Lately, in my free time, I just relax since I have to work like 9 sometimes 10 hours a day. But, it still gets lonely. I wish that I could get over this complex that I have. I want to hang out with people, I want them to call me, not the other way around. I don't know why I think like that. I figure that if they wanted to hang out with me then they would call me. I'm sure that it probably works both ways. Also, I don't like to just show up at people's houses. It makes me feel rude and uninvited. The way I see it is that we all know that one person who we put up with when we have to and don't actually like or want to be friends with, so we avoid them whenever we can. I have this massive fear that to a lot of people I am that person. OR I am the person who people don't really care if I am around or not. If I happen to show up--cool. If I am not around when people are hanging out--oh, well.
If I just had the balls to call people to see if they wanted to hang out, then this wouldn't be a problem. But, what if they feel caught between arock and a hard place, and say yes even though they don't actually want me around, and then when I am there everything is all weird.
Whatever.
In other news, I have an entire public address due on July 24, and I don't even have a topic. I want to write a Crit, but I have never written one for competition. Yes, I have taken Rhet Crit, and yes I have taken Com Theory, but that is class, and this is competition. I'm just worried that I'm not going to get it done, and then Kittie will freak out because this is now part of a our Forensics scholarship.
Contemplate this: Is paralanguage as effective an indicator on the phone as it is in person?
posted by sljones @ 3:47 PM
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