Summer Begins

This is my favorite forensics picture. :o)

I feel like summer has officially begun. The main way that I can tell that summer is in full swing is that I work a lot and don't really do much else, so my time is divided between working my ass off while being completely stressed out and being bored out of my mind. When I'm not working, I will either just be sitting at home watching tv or getting drunk, and that's about it. I do have a place to live now, though. I was really worried about being homeless for a while there. My apartment is divided in half: walk in one door and there's the bedroom and bathroom, and walk back into the hallway and into the other door and there's the kitchen and living area for my apartment. I think that I can make it work. I think that I might go a little stir crazy without cable or the internet. As soon as I have enough money saved up,my firt purchase will be a dvd player for the tv my roommate left me.

This last week has been really weird. I've been saying goodbye to people that I will never see again, and seeing other people that I previously thought that I would never see again, either. It's really strange to say goodbye to people who you have known for three years of your life. I often wonder if they feel any sadness about not seeing me again, either. I seem to have a pattern of creating really good friendships with people that only last a year, maybe two at the most--I wonder if I have stability issues. That would explain a lot.

Oh, and I finally got back in all of my grades and I got all A's. So my cumulative GPA is 3.73, and I have a 4.0 in both of my majors. YEA! I wasn't sure if I was going to pull it off considering all of the work that I had to do at the last minute, but like usual it worked out in the end. My future is looking a bit less nebulous now. Considering my grades and that I am getting more national success and recognition in forensics, I think that I am increasing my odds of getting into a good grad school and maybe even an assistantship. That would rock my face off!

Contemplate this: Does luck really favor the prepared, or are there just some people that lead better lives?

Let the countdown begin

I am so close to being done with this semester! I took my last exam yesterday and I have to write a paper for tomorrow. It's really strange to think that I am going to be a Senior next year, I always feel like there's someone that I can look up to and learn from, but now I am going to be the oldest--I hope I don't fuck it up.

Oh, and I still don't have a place to live. There are two places on the top of my list--one looks cute from the outside, but its $300, and the other one is kinda crappy, but its $175. I'm not quite sure what I am going to do because I'm not going to have enough money at the end of the month for either one and I can't ask my parents, but I'm sure something will work out.

The best part of all is that I will be living alone!! I cannot handle the drama of roommates anymore. Moodswings, PMS, fighting. . .it all sucks. But in my own place, I can do whatever I want and not have to worry about anyone else's bullshit. I won't have tv or the internet for a while, but I'll change that as soon as I can. I'll just have to save up some money first. I think that I will be able to afford living on my own because I will be promoted to manager at McD's by the middle of June. THe money will be way nice.

Contemplate this: How can you save money when you don't have any in the first palce to survive on?

Beacon in the Night

I sometimes feel lost or confused, so I think that this is helpful.

Your Birthdate: October 29

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November

I'll post later with more news.

Midweek Blues

We finally did officer elections yesterday for forensics--and I have good news and some okay, not really bad news. I am finally an officer. After two years of being nominated for every position, I finally got elected--as treasurer. I am extremely excited about that, but I had hoped for a higher position. It's not that big of a deal because I think that everyone who was elected will do a good job with the positions that they got.

In other news, today we had the Academic Showcase and I went to one of the sessions that my roommate, Nitpicky M was in. I think that she did a good job, so I was way proud of her. The other presented in the session also did a good job, he talked about the Romanovs in Russia and the events that led to their execution. Surprisingly, it made me want to take another history class. I won't however because I prefer case studies rather than the chronological depiction of an entire country. I have to write a short summary of the session for two different classes and I really don't want to.

Even though the end of this semester is in sight, I am scared to death. I have so much left to do, and the papers, presentations, etc. . .are worth so many points that I don't know how I'm going to get everything done in time. I am trying to start early on everything that I have left to do, but I'm not sure how much this is going to help. I am an A student, but I think that considering the way that this semester has been going I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. What gets so frustrating is when I have a LOT of reading to do on top of work, class, papers, and everything else that I just don't think that I can get it all done on time.

Not only do I have all of this crap to do, but I have to start looking for a place to live this summer, and I need to do it soon. I need to know how much money I need to start putting aside, make sure that they keep the place for me, and make sure that I have at least a chair to sit in. Literally, I have no furniture of my own. I have a random dresser and desk that is in my bedroom at home, but I don't think that my parents can bring it to me. I just don't know what to do.

Contemplate this: Is forced friendship really friendship?