Eeeck

So I heard about like 3 robberies that happened this weekend. Two of them in Hastings and one of them in Omaha. It is kinda freaking me out because there are all of these robberies taking place and if anyone tries to rob McD's then I am the one who is in charge and supposed to keep everyone calm and do whatever the robber wants. I don't want to deal with that crap!

Oh, and then there was an employee this weekend who stole $700 in three days and nobody stopped it until Sunday. So, they know who did it and the person is going to be charged a class 3 felony, and one of the other managers has to go testify soon. I am just amazed by how one person could steal that much money in three days and almost get away with it. AND another employee had her purse stolen. I just cannot believe all of this crap that is going on.

And then tomorrow I am supposed to get verified and that means that I will finally get a pay raise and I can be at work alone without another manager babysitting me. Yeah!

Contemplate this: What type of situation must a person be in to feel the need to steall $700 at the age of 17?

Mah!

This is my second favorite forensics picture.









Camp is officially over the half way point. As camp progresses, I feel like all of my campers and the ones that signed t coach with me don't actually want to coach with me, they just put their name down because they had to. It seems like all of the campers are going to like three people for help. I mean don't get me wrong, it's awesome that the high school kids are willingly getting help, but I just feel pretty worthless, and I know that some of my fellow teammates feel the same way. . .oh well. I think that this is my last camp, I probably won't do it next unless they NEED me to. Ok, enough camp crap.

So, there's another fabulous "HC Advantage" that can be added to the list. It is no longer the Hurley MacDonald building, but Harley! Ha. . .I hope it cost them a lot of money. They messed it up and didn't notice for like a week (I remember them changing the sign). I noticed it on Wednesday when I went to the library and it cracked me up. Apparently some of the financial aid ladies want to call Dr Lovekin and have him get his picture taken with his Harley by the sign. Lord.

Oh, and the 'Ho sucks, and I would rather eat a shoe.

Contemplate this: Why do I put these at the end? They're never anything that interesting anyway.

ouch!

Well, camp starts in less than 24 hours, and I''m a little worried that it is going to suck and be awkward, and I'm just going to want to go home. Blah. The best thing about camp I think is that I don't have to work McD's until next Tuesday. Which is good because I needed a break. Yesterday I was coming in the back door, and the door closed on my middle finger. I didn't break my finger, but it is definitely damaged. it's all swollen, and a little discolored. This happened at like 2:00pm, so for the last five hours of my shift I would put my finger in a cup of ice water, and justs keep on keepin on.

I did get my 'financial aid award' letter from HC, though. It looks like with all of the increased scholarship money, student loans, and grants that I am getting that my parents might not even have to take out a PlusLoan. however, my mom is awesome and going to take out a PlusLoan anyway so that I can get that money in a refund and pay off my car and my laptop and maybe even my credit card, so that all I have to worry about during the school year is my rent and cell phone bills. I am amazed that my mom is willing to do that when she doesn't even have to take out a loan for tuition. It makes me feel a little more confident with my ability to live on my own next year.

Contemplate this: What's the difference between planning ahead to be cautious and the old adage "don't count all your eggs before they're hatched"?

HOT

I hate summer heat. It was already like 98 degrees this week and it's not even July. Whatev.

Well, I'm done with my 'Basic Shift Management' class and apparently, I have to go to an 'Advanced Shift Management' class in July. I just think that it is really lame for McDs to pay for me to go to these classes when I am not going to be working there in a year. This is NOT my career path, and yet they are making me go to these classes--ridiculous. As long as I get my raise soon, I guess I'll go to these classes, I mean they are paying me for being there.

Contemplate this: Is it horrible to not want to go to a family reunion, even if you know that your mom really, REALLY wants you to be there? I think so.

"Standing on the edge of what I can't escape"

5 pts to whoever can tell me what movie that quotation is from.

Well, all last week I was looking forward to going to the Q last night, but as it turned out I didn't have any money, so I couldn't go. I have decided that I absolutely love the Queens and that I would spend every night there if I could. They're beautiful. I think that I will try to go in July. :o)

Ugh, and tomorrow I have to go to Kearney to attend this management class for the next three days, so that I can get verified and make more money as an actual manager--which is awesome, but I really don't want to go to Kearney. I am gonna go though because if I don't than I am going to continue to get screwed on my paycheck. I found out on Saturday night that there are a number of regular employees who are making a lot more money than I am, so as soon as I get back from class, I am going to nag them to death about getting a raise.

In other news. . .camp is coming. I don't know how other people feel about camp, but I am not a fan. The last two times that I have been a counselor, it hasn't been the greatest experience. I mean, nothing huge happened, but it just takes forever, and honestly, I would rather be working. Blah. But, from what I hear, one of my favorite ladies is going to be there!! That makes camp seem a little less shitty. Damn. I just looked at the time, and there is no way that I am going to have time to do some research before that library closes at 4:30. Oh well, life goes on.

Contemplate this: Is it worth it to let your hair grow out through the awkward stage after being short, or should I just leave it short? (I'm growing my hair out)

mmm. . .tired

Well, I couldn't get to sleep last night. I kept thinking about how if certain people read one of my posts then they could twist it and misunderstand what I wrote and get pissed off. I just get so sick and tired of people thinking that I am a bitch, when honestly, I am just trying to be nice to people. I am the type of person who is apparently not allowed to have an opinion. If I voice my opinion--even if it is meant to nice and understanding--people fly off the fucking handle and treat me like shit. I have been experiencing this for years, so there are a lot of times where I decide that I am not going to say anything because I don't want to be treated like shit. But then that opens a whole other can of worms. Then people start to think that I think that I am better than them and that I think that I am too good to talk to them. When in reality, I don't think that I am better than anyone, I am just trying to ensure that people can't twist my words against me and put other words in my mouth. I am constantly stuck in a catch 22. I know that some people would give me advice like, "who cares? fuck 'em", but it's not that easy when the people who freak out are people that you have to see on a weekly basis and who you once thought were your friends.

I was thinking last night that it would be nice if I could just carry a sign with me that would explin why I am not talking to anyone at the moment. It would say things like: I'm just not in the mood to talk; I'm not talking because people seem crabby and I don't want to piss anyone off; or I'm not talking because I am angry at someone. And trust me, the very last comment would be the one least showing. I think that that would be the easiest way for me to explain that there are not seedy reasons for my "quiet times", I guess you could call them.
Shit, I have to be to work in 10 minutes, I'll post later this week, if I get up early enough before I go to work.

Contemplate this: Am I worrying for nothing or imagining these things?

Moved in

Well, I am officially moved in to my new apartment. I have a couple of boxes left to unpack and then I will be home. I ended moving in to the "split" apartment, and I think that I will be able to make it just fine, I mean for $175 a month, I think that it is worth it. The scariest thing about the apartment is that it has a gas stove and I hate the smell of gas and I'm really nervous about a gas leak. I'm either not going to use the stove at all or slowly get used to it over time.
Yesterday went pretty well until I started going through my bills that my mom left me and then I had an emotional break down. My credit card debt is rediculous and I don't know how I'm ever going to pay it off. I talked to my mom though and of course she calmed me down and then everything was better. AND tomorrow is pay day!! Who can be in a bad mood on pay day? Maybe I will already have enough money to buy a dvd player so that I can use the behemoth tv that my old roommate left me, that would be way nice so that I have something to do. Because right now the only entertainment that I have in my apartment is music, and I can only jam out for so long before I get bored.

Contemplate this: Is it a bad sign that I will be looking to pick up more than 40 hours a week a work so that I have something to do?